I was sitting in the doctor’s office yesterday and I saw a patient that was a regular in chemo with me for months. I’d say he’s about my age….but I know he’s probably much younger than I am. He told me that his tumors were coming back and he had to start chemo again next week. It made me nauseous. I hope he’ll only have to do one more round. I’d been having some pain in my pelvis so I began to think that maybe my pelvic tumor was coming back too….that’s how I knew the last time it grew. The nurse said that my hemoglobin and red blood cells were low…… I have no idea what that means, but it made me want to forget that I had any results coming back today. But then…..GUESS WHAT…..my HCG (my tumor markers) is the lowest it’s been yet:
It’s been hovering at 2 for so long…..and it finally dropped this week. My mom was here for 10 days….it must have been all the praying she did 🙂
It’s crazy to be focused on a number. When my HCG was at 280,000 I didn’t think much of it, when it was at 4,000 I didn’t really think about it, when it got down to 70 it didn’t phase me much…I was more focused on getting through treatment. It’s a different feeling now that it’s almost at zero. Every little movement up or down seems so much more significant. I think at 1 my tumors are looking dead….how convenient that I already had this picture drawn!
I was at Barnes and Noble catching up on some writing when I got the text with the results. I wanted to share the news with someone, anyone, but everyone was engrossed in their own conversation or reading. So instead I left a message to the next person who might sit down at my table as I left:
That was fun. I think I’ll just start leaving random notes to strangers around town now.
Thanks awesome Ashley. I am so happy for you and your family. Awesome.
What a beautiful idea with the notes.
Small acts of kindness or friendliness completely out of the blue is always something you remember and it can sometimes make someones day ♥
You are awesome!! Praying for you! So glad that number is almost gone!
YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So excited for you!!! Now go celebrate!
Wonderful news Ashley! Great idea on the notes too! So happy for this news for you!
love it!!!! YOU have a great day! <3
You are so sweet :):) Congrats on your new numbers!
Allison S. says
this.is.AWESOME!!!! Very happy news Ashley. And I love your note, if I saw that it’d make me smile and I would pay it forward.
Yay! Yay! Yay!! Praising God and smiling so big in my heart!
Tammara Alwaked says
You’re such a blessing. I’m so happy for you. What a great idea 🙂
Sherry McCarron says
You are such an inspiration! I can only hope that if I am ever faced with something anything like you have been faced with that I could handle it with such grace, compassion for other people, and such positive thinking. Even though we’ve never met you are in my thoughts and prayers daily and I am in your corner cheering you on! Great news Ashley! They only number better than1 is 0 🙂
I am so happy that number moved! I love your little note!
Christina Taylor says
Hip, Hip, Hooray for a ONE!!!! That’s amazing… and so is your idea of random notes left for strangers. I love it. 🙂
Awesome!!! I’m so happy for you and yes, those prayers worked along with all of ours. 🙂
Love the note you left too. I love doing that…posting them on car windshields, in books at the library or book stores, where ever you feel someone will find them.
Have a wonderful week!
Meagan Briggs says
I am thrilled for you!!!!!!!!!!! You’re amazing!
Mary Jane Postiglione says
Love so funny I use to leave notes when I was a teenager now I leave coupons that I didn’t use at the grocery store ha! Your little notes are going to be like the golden ticket! I can just see one now on EBay! Ha! So happy to hear you are at número UNO:)
Awesome! I’m so happy for you!!
Grace Bower says
Such great news!! Sending prayers and blessings your way.
Tleshia Farrar says
Hip hip hooray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Praise God! I also like the idea of the random notes 🙂
Zoe B says
Fantastic News!!!! 🙂
Alison J Prata O'Grady says
A a fellow Member in the “C” Club, I am thrilled for you! I know how critical those numbers are!
People always comment about my upbeat attitude and outlook. I cause them to pause when I reply, “After beating cancer, it’s hard NOT to have a fabulous day!”
Go get ’em!
Kim Rhodes says
GREAT NEWS!!! It made my day!!!
This news made me SMILE! SO happy for you.
Leaving random notes are POWERFUL!! I’m so happy for you and I wish you nothing but the best!!!
Janice Varvel says
PS The note idea is awesome! Anonymous good works!!
So happy to hear some good news 🙂
Jennifer Goldberg says
Awesome news…so excited!
Yay!!! One is definitely NOT the loneliest number now! YAY! I am so happy for you! There has been such sad news here, and I was literally praying for some good news today. Thank you for the good news! It has made my day. 🙂
Prayers for you all… and Blessings to you all.
Jennifer Owings says
Such awesome news for such an awesome person! I love reading your blog. It always puts a smile on my face. I wish this world had more people like you. <3
It’s like operationbeautiful.com
if you don’t know about that, check it out, it’s really cool!
andrea porter says
That’s awesome!! 🙂
Woo-Hoo! Fantastic news!! So happy for you and your family! 🙂
Cathy R says
PTL!! Prayer works ~ God is awesome! You are such an inspiration sweet Ashley!
Me TOO, I’m going to make some sweet notes to leave wherever I go! Heavenly blessings to you and thanks for taking the time to share your life with us! Cathy in Idaho
Diane Delatorre says
So happy for you! I was at Barnes & Nobles this afternoon too, well actually Starbucks!! I wish I had seen you, I would have recognized you from FB. I would have shouted hooray from the top of my lungs lol!!!! Keep up the notes, maybe I’ll be lucky enough to find one hahaha!!! Take care, it’s working, and so are the prayers xo.
Crystal @MrsHappyHomemaker.com says
What wonderful news!! God is so good!!
You are such a special young lady…….. praying for you.
judy livonius says
Praise God!! So happy for you and all of us who love you so much!!
Emily Raaka says
Fantastic!!! I am so happy for you!!
amy cornwell says
Praise God! I wore my purple bracelet today and prayed for you multiple times, thinking it was a normal day for you but regardless praying for blessings. What an answer to prayer. I’m so happy for you! Here’s my photo w/ my bracelet today: http://instagr.am/p/KF28P9g3ef/ – GOD IS GOOD! Congratulations!
Woohoo for your good news! May they go down, down, down till – poof! All gone! And I love that note you left. Passing on the joy is a really great idea.
I know what you mean about news like that making you feel nauseous. Each time I hear of somebody not doing well, after they had been doing well, it scares the crap out of me.
Wonderful news for you, sweetie xoxo
Yeah! I never saw a more wonderful sight than that 1! I should have paid more attention to the title of the post….must say I was upset for the beginning of that first paragraph! Prayers for the man you saw today and continued prayers for you!
Wonderful news!!! I love the happy note idea, I think I’ll try it out…so happy for you today!
yay & you’re awesome!!
You are MIRACULOUS, Ashley! Love the note and the idea to keep it up 🙂
Meredith M. says
Great news! I am total believer in prayer….I will continue to pray for healing for you! Blessings!
Nicole Dein says
Yeah!!! Miracles do happen:) I am so happy for you and your family. They have to be thrilled!! I really like the note idea…I might have to try that! Have a great rest of your week.
Yay for #1!
And I love the random notes of kindness…sounds like fun! I might have to try that 🙂
YIPPEE!! such great news!!
Congratulations! That’s great news. And what a wonderful idea to leave a nice note.
Carly @ Masons Roost says
SO SO SO SO awesome Ashley! God is so good.
Such great news! I love the idea of leaving little notes -another way to pay it forward 🙂
Wanda Kern says
Happy news. Here is what you have been fighting for. Keep visualizing those tumors gone and preparing for your post-cancer life! YIPPEE!
Yay! That’s wonderful news.
thank you Lord!!!
Oh yipppeeeee:)so o happy!!!!
Michele M says
Amen! So happy your numbers have dropped!!!! Continued prayers being sent from me!!!! Hugs to you and your family! You made someones day with that sweet note! What a joy you are!
Patricia Blomeley-Maddigan says
Medical visits and tests easily turn us into number driven people……..
Sad but true. Hang in there. Good numbers are worth waiting for.
So very happy for you and your family. Wonderful news!
nickelle Weekes says
SO Happy for YOU!!! xo 🙂 Congrats!
Amazing what the little things in life can do to cheer someone up! congrats on your almost-zero! (I’m gonna start leaving notes wherever I sit. Never know who might need a cheering -up!)
Lisa Cousineau says
Congratulations Ashley! That’s wonderful news! One is a good number 🙂 So glad we’re BOTH through this part… my last chemo was a week ago. And speaking of RAK’s something you’ve inspired me and my 11 year old daughter to do is leave little “gifts” in the hollow of a tree at our local arboretum. We found a stone with LOVE etched in it, my daughter replaced it with an acorn fairy she made… we keep leaving little gifts for people to find. I love the idea of leaving little post its in public places!
Yahooooooooooooooooooooooooo! So happy for you – great idea for the note – I will do that myself – to God be the Glory!
Maureen Wildauer says
PRAISE GOD FROM WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW!!!!
So happy for you. Will keep praying!
amy s says
Wonderful news Ashley!!!!
Really, really wonderful news for a really really wonderful person!
Woohoo!! I can totally relate about those numbers. They carry so much importance these days – almost more now than while in treatment because of how much I hate chemo and treatment. I think the day my numbers increase will be just about the toughest day of my life.
Can I just say that is freaking awesome! I’ve been praying right along with your mom woo hooo. I hope you had a wonderful day!
I am excited for your number to be so low. I love the idea of leaving notes for strangers. I think I will make some note cards to leave for strangers. What a great idea. I would love to have found your note.
Rock on sista!
i know it’s so silly, but i love to read your blog because i feel like you’re talking right to me. = ) i’m the friend you haven’t met yet… so someday. = ) so glad you got good news. I love your designs and that you have to create to live. I love it too but am not as good at making the time to create. I guess I do in small ways… making up songs for my daughters or… creating art through photography… anyway, just thought i would express how your life has impacted my life for the good. = ) CeCe
So happy for you Ashley!!! Love your note idea!
Congrats! Wonderful news and so happy for you. You are always in my prayers and you are still so beautiful and inspiring. I love the “random notes” idea and think it would be great if more people did kind things like that! I certainly am going to spread the happiness! Love and blessings to you Ashley! God Bless!
Yay, Ashley!!!! That’s beyond awesome (((hugs))).
hola, estoy muy impresionada con tu historia, eres un ejemplo de vida, aunque no me conozcas recibe un fuerte abrazo y que Dios bendiga y multiplique tu buena salud. Por casualidad conoci tu trabajo y no hay dia que no vea tu pagina. estas en mis oraciones , espero pronto volver a leer mas noticias lindas en tu blog…. saludos
That’s so great! I’ve had problems with pelvic pain ever since my molar pregnancy in 2008. I asked the Drs about it but no one could ever really tell me why so I deal. Congrats on hitting ONE though that’s such great news!
Amy T says
Congrats on your numbers!
Fantastic news! Can only imagine what it must feel like. You’ve endured so well.
that is so great that they have come down to a single digit. Hope the next results shows a big fat ZERO… <3 and hugs from Down Under..
Jeanne Van Buskirk says
Great news! And what a thoughtful idea to leave cheerful notes behind. I think I’ll try it too 🙂
Have a great week!
So pleased for you! Such fab news! I love the note leaving too!!
love the random notes….. consider them done.
That is awesome news!! I’m happy for you but really sad to hear that the young guy is back in for a round. I hope he one day gets a happy number like you did….
Congrats on the awesome news! Love the pic you drew. Power of intention. You go girl!
And the note? How beautiful to have left that for someone else. Love. Pass it on.
best news of the day so far…and its already 2pm here!!! i keep logging on to check on you and have been rewarded….so happy for you ash!
Ashlee Tomes says
That is so wonderful, Ashley!! Praise the Lord! 🙂
“Christ can put a spring in your step and a thrill in your heart. Optimism and cheerfulness are products of knowing Christ.” ~Billy Graham
Thank you for your consistent optimism and cheerfulness! You are SUCH an inspiration!! Have a wonderful day!! 🙂
And what great inspiration to leave the notes!!!!! I know the person who read it had a smile on their face!!!
Stephanie in MI says
My cousin finished her chemo yesterday for the breast cancer she’s been diagnosed with. It was a good day. I’m so happy for you. I love that you left that note, too.
Praise God!!!! I’m sittin here weeping with thankfulness for one awesome test result…obviously He’s got plans for your future and I am grateful that you have had such a strong witness. Continuing to pray for you and your family whenever I think of it. You are so STRONG, girl!!!!
YAY!!! Such great news!! Love the note you left. So thoughtful, I should definitely try that.
Yippee!!!!!!! What wonderful news! Great note – I love doing that!
ira lee henson says
thats great news!!!! congrats!
Susan Duffey says
You are amazing, Ashley. I’m so thrilled for you and your healing. 🙂
YAY Ashley!!! And thank you Jesus!!
Wahoo, Ashley!! Thrilled at your wonderful news!
Very nice random message! And Thank God for #1!!!
So happy for you!! So amazing- YOU are so amazing! I love your random note- that makes me happy, I just had to smile. I think that is brilliant and I am going to follow suit and start leaving cheery notes, in random places.
That’s such fantastic news for you Ashley. I would so love to be the next person at the table after you leave one of your notes, how cute.
Charlene J says
I dont know you, but I sure do love your outlook on life. And little notes left behind are so much fun to discover 🙂
Great news and I love that you left a note. Awesome.
I haven’t had time to read the blog as often as I was, but I think of you daily! What wonderful news! And I would be so very happy to find a nice note like that from an anonymous stranger! I hope that you see ZERO very, very soon!!!!!
Ashley, I am so excited for you.
Ashley I feel like I feel when a family member gets good news and I don’t even know you. I’m so happy the number went down and I hope the pelvic pain is nothing concerning. Continued good news for you!
Meghan Grace says
YES! The number dropped Sweetie Pea! Happy day! Choosing Joy!!!
Nancy's Couture says
I am continually praying for you. I am soooo glad you are number 1! Come on 0!!!
Nancy's Couture says
PS I love the random note idea. I hope you don’t mind if I join you in that!
I love the note idea!
You are such a trooper! I’ve followed your blog on-and-off again for a while, and think you’re the most creative, funky, comical, positive person out there. Your style is super cool and I love the idea of leaving happy notes for others to find. (I once found one written on a post it in the bathroom at my University that totally made my day…come to think of it, on the same campus, someone clipped a clothespin on me that said “you’re hott”.) Good ideas to make people happy and smile!
go to operationbeautiful.com her mission is to help many people feel better about themselves by leaving inspirational notes on the Women’s bathroom mirrors. What a lovely way to help women feel better about themselves and spread the love.
congrats on reaching “1”. This is the only time I’d tell someone that I hope you’re a “0” soon! : )
Praise the Lord!!
Joanne Archer says
Just a random note from a friendly stranger; fantastic news, so pleased for you.