Life can change in an instant.
There’s no easy way to say it…..we lost our baby. It might seem strange, but I don’t have any questions about what happened. I never think about what might have been. As a family, we know everything happens for a reason and we are at peace with our loss. Boo is comforted that our baby is with Grandpa in heaven now keeping him company. We move forward and appreciate each other, our family, our health and many other blessings we have.
I’m feeling weaker than normal and it’s taking me longer than I thought to physically recuperate. I’m trying to be good and rest but that’s the hardest thing for me to do….my instincts are to jump up and do something awesome and fun.
Yesterday, I opened up some mail from my mother and she had included a photocopy from a book based on scripture that was eerily perfect:
“Though many things feel random and wrong, remember that I am sovereign over everything. I can fit everything into a pattern for good, but only to the extent that you trust Me. Every problem can teach you something, transforming you little by little into the masterpiece I created you to be. The very same problem can become a stumbling block over which you fall, if you react with distrust and defiance. The choice is up to you, and you will have to choose many times each day whether to trust Me or defy Me.”
I don’t have much of a timeline for my life……if it’s God’s will we’ll have a sister or brother for Boo one day soon!
I remember what my Dad would want me to do….I choose joy.