I never thought cancer would be part of my story. But life never turns out as you plan….and now I have The Cancer Chronicles. In July 2011, my husband and I were working on expanding our family. It sadly resulted in a miscarriage. In September 2011, I took a pregnancy test and it was positive. It turns out it wasn’t a new pregnancy, but a continuation of the first pregnancy: a molar pregnancy. It also sent cancerous cells throughout my body. A tumor was growing in my uterus and it grew so rapidly that it invasively grew straight through to the other side. In October 2011, I was transported to Loma Linda with internal bleeding. While on the operating table to remove the tumor in my uterus I started hemorrhaging and lost 4/5 of my blood. The surgeons had to perform an emergency hysterectomy in order to save my life. I underwent 2 different lines of chemotherapy that were unsuccessful and it was determined that I had a rare aggressive cancer called Choriocarcinoma. The third line of chemotherapy EMA-EP was a brutal process of weekly 8 hour infusions where most people get 2 or 3 weeks off in between…..but it worked. I’m monitored weekly for any increase in my tumor markers (HCG) to make sure it doesn’t come back and also because the chemotherapy I got increases my risk for leukemia. Here is my story from day 1.…it includes the death of my father in May 2011:
Or what we thought was a miscarriage….
Single Parenting and Aftermath of a Miscarriage
Graphic…..but the truth.
Back Home for the First Time
Visiting my parent’s house after my dad died.
Praying for Dreams, Utopia
The photographer that knew my dad.
Are You There God, It’s Me Ashley
The day I found out I had cancer…….and my 2nd D&C.
Loma Linda and Ox
Visiting the Oncologist at Loma Linda Trip and then coming right back via ambulance.
An Update from Brett
Mr. LBB’s first post……the emergency hysterectomy.
My first post after surgery….writing from the hospital.
The horrors of post surgery.
OCD and trying to recuperate from surgery.
Not feeling like myself.
I can’t blow dry my own hair.
Back to Loma Linda and a scary photo of my incision.
Coming Home and the Dolphin
A horse looked into my soul…..I’m serious.
A Simple Thing
Handing out a Choose Joy bracelet.
Bum Shots and a Wedding Dress
They put huge horse needles in my bum….and here’s a photo.
I can’t wear regular pants…so I’ll wear these.
Piece of Cake
Horse-sized needles suck.
A new headshot.
The Nitty Gritty
Laxatives, beer bongs, Greece and Team Edward.
Maxi pads, maternity jeans, mathematical equation and donuts.
First line chemotherapy isn’t working.
Reflecting on what might have been.
The Traveling Shirt
They think I have Ebola or something…..
Today I will be…..
Cram it up your cramhole cancer.
Yep it’s Me….
My bra is getting emptier.
A new oncologist: Dr. L
I’m glad it’s me.
Activity Radiating from an Atom
The cancer is growing back.
This is Only A Test
Just got to make sure I look okay bald….because that matters right?
Something Borrowed and Li’l Blue
First day of second line chemotherapy EMA-CO.
Sleep and a Little Itchy
I’m toxic. The day after the first treatment.
A Family Photo
Before I lose my hair.
Enjoying some time before chemotherapy.
Brochures on oral sex.
Note to Self
They give the shot in my STOMACH.
Holy Joint Pain Batman
After effects of drugs.
My hair is falling out.
A huge drop in HCG levels…..and my hair continues to fall out.
White Coat Syndrome
I’m the hang up caller.
Happy to Be Here
The take or die drug.
Cancer Equals New Rules
Everyone has an opinion when you have cancer.
Find joy today…..in anything.
My mom shaved her head.
Rite of Passage
Shaving my head.
A Cool Feeling
Now what? The honest truth.
A Social Experiment
The guy that stole my cart. What category do you fall in?
What I take to chemotherapy.
Never wear a wonky bra to a CT scan. No tattoos please dear……
Don’t google “girls that poop at work”….
I’m the rare case……the chemotherapy isn’t working.
Please Comment or Lisa will Cry.
Lisa’s behind the scenes post.
I pooped today.
I haven’t been going to church.
Phantom Hair Syndrome.
No boobie shots here….sorry.
I never say the “F” word…just “Eff”
My first wig….it was gift.
First In, Last Out
EMA-EP. 8 hour chemo days….and a map to the bathroom.
Li’l Boob Loo
Chemo Facebooking is the same as Drunk Facebooking.
Pooping and the H Word
Everyone has them…..no one talks about them.
I Took a Shower….Honest
A day of chemotherapy. Tumor flare ups.
Decadron is like speed.
A Pattern For Good
Mabel and Sylvia
Sylvia Plath and Dr. L’s dictating.
Fear Will Not Rule
Cisplatin. Let me out of here.
A Little Color
Choose Joy according to kids.
Desert, Determination and Methotrexate
Trying to exercise.
Limitations Can Be Liberating
Thank you for the conditions requiring me to be still.
Rock Paper Lizard Scissors Spock
Meeting Mr. W.
A Comfort Shower
Who decides they want to do this as a profession?
The Local News
Being on film always makes me cringe!
Lifetime Movie Star
You have no idea what this is doing to your body.
Paying it forward.
It’s possible to gain that in one day. A photo of Lloydette.
A Little of the Same
A run on sentence.
I Painted My Bible
And the peace of God….
More CT scans. Warning labels.
All In A Day’s Work
Getting back to work….and babysitting my twin.
Diesel crapped on my pillow….it’s okay because I didn’t have hair.
The Best News
An answer to prayer.
My first hike….my hands turned purple.
Enough already. You are depressing everyone.
Two Months Since…
Photos from Taili Song Roth.
He never even knew I had a miscarriage….or cancer.
10 Ric Flairs
Cisplatin side effects.
I’m Just a Wee Little Shot
I think my ovaries are fried….and this woman can’t hear…but it’s funny.
60 Years of Wisdom and Strength
So much meaning.
A Surfboard for Godzilla
My hair’s growing back.
At least she knows what she’ll look like bald….
Last Day Love
My last day of chemo…..
I look like an old man…..and a spider bit me. WTF.
Chips in a Box
Chemotherapy’s havoc on the stomach.
A New Normal
My HCG is at 2.
My mom’s wig. Forging prescriptions.
Men Oh Paws Uhl
It nuked my eggs.
Cancer Can Be Awesome.
Before you misinterpret this….read the post.
How to lice bomb a post….and a waiting room.
Of course I did the calculation……
Want to See My Booty?
Yay for blood tests every other week.
My Life is a Lumpy Circle
Estrogen and the comic view of life.
A new doctor and a jump in tumor markers.
Do I get a cookie?
CT scans….and jungle juice.
If a Tree Falls In the Forest
Apparently chemo wreaks havoc on your system…..down the road.
Make Sure Your Heart Notifies Your Face
Just an update from the GynOnc.
I Had the Pleasure of Seeing….
I know my doctor’s drill now. I can even impersonate him.
A Year of My Life as Chronicled by My Hair
Before and after photos.
The Girl with Nada Tattoos
My faux hawk.
Lord of the Flies
My first haircut after losing my hair!
And Then it Tells Me to Call 9-1-1
What are the effin’ odds I have 2 types of cancer?! (low probably)
Dear God, I’m Taking Them Back
My new headshot because my hair is as long as Justin Beiber’s!
Sophistication Follows Me Nowhere
You start thinking about radiation everywhere….and then you don’t care.
Styling Short Hair
Learning what to do with short hair!
This Daring Adventure
One year later.
The Year in Review
Go on you peeps of awesomeness…
Have the Day You Have
A CT scan coming up.
I Like the Hair You Added
The waiting room at the imaging center.
Good results but I lost a lung.
At the Present
Long term side effects of Cisplatin.
The True Measure of a Man
Forgetting appointments and having a sense of humor.
The Ghost of Cancer Past
Looking back on cancer and how it changed me.
Detox and Healthy Posts
Starting to juice. What I take to chemotherapy.
Benefits of bee pollen.
Testing your acidity.
A Lecture from Dr. Mom
….more healthy stuff.
Just what it says…detox.
My Li’l List: Healthy Living and Detox
Things that helped me survive Cisplatin.
What you put in…..helps the bad stuff to come out.